Here's an illustration that describes Pelagianism.  It's not original with me, but I like it.

Situation:  You are stranded out in the middle of the ocean. 

Pelagian:  God pointed the way to the shore and I swam to safety.

Semi-Pelagian (or synergist):  God threw me a life preserver and I grabbed on, and he pulled me to shore.

What the Bible teaches:  I had already drowned and was completely dead. God pulled me out, brought me safely to the shore, and breathed new life into me.

Here's a partial answer I gave to an earlier post, complete with Bible references that speaks to this topic.  Why reinvent the wheel, right?

“Ask Jesus into your heart”  (Intentional Christianity)

This is probably one of the worst theological statements you'll hear a Christian use.  People have the mistaken notion that they are the ones who have asked Jesus into their heart, that they want him to take control of their life, and they have decided that he is the one to be their Saviour.

In Ephesians 2, Paul gives a very detailed description of our conversion.  Verses 4-5 read: "But because of his great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions—it is by grace you have been saved."

In 1 Corinthians 12:3 Paul also reminds us: "...no-one can say, Jesus is Lord, except by the Holy Spirit."

In John 15:16 Jesus says, "You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you to go and bear fruit—fruit that will last."

And finally, Ephesians 2 8-9 says: "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith— and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no-one can boast."

People seem to delight in crediting themselves for their own conversion and coming to faith.  But the Bible clearly teaches that we are completely dead in our transgressions and sins, and therefore completely incapable of making such a decision.  God the Holy Spirit is the one who works the miracle of faith in our hearts, and makes it possible for us to proclaim Jesus Christ as our personal Saviour from sin, and declare him to be the Lord of our lives. 

For people to say that "they have made a decision to accept Christ into their hearts," is claiming personal credit for something the Holy Spirit has done for them.  The only thing we have the power to do is to reject the gift of faith the Holy Spirit has given us.  Paul warns us about this in Ephesians 4:30, "And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you were sealed for the day of redemption."

So if you believe that you were the one responsible for asking Jesus into your heart, take another look and give God the Holy Spirit the credit he deserves.

The one thing that struck me the most in your post is your use of the words "I feel."  It would appear that you are focusing mostly on your own personal emotions and feelings in this process.  Even though pastors should have an active desire to serve God in the public ministry, there are proper ways to pursue this.  Of course we have to start with what Scripture says in this regard, and do some serious self-examination according to it.

The office of the pastor is very necessary.  Paul writes in Romans 10:14-15: "How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them?  And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, 'How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!'"

Paul's letters to Timothy and Titus are key sections of Scripture to study for somebody considering the ministry.  Paul was preparing these two young men to be pastors, so his words of instruction are pointedly directed to both those preparing for this office, as well as every pastor as he conducts his ministry.

1 Timothy 3:1-7 is something that requires some deep study and self-reflection.  We read: "Here is a trustworthy saying: If anyone sets his heart on being an overseer,[pastor] he desires a noble task. Now the overseer must be above reproach, the husband of but one wife, temperate, self-controlled, respectable, hospitable, able to teach, not given to drunkenness, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money. He must manage his own family well and see that his children obey him with proper respect. (If anyone does not know how to manage his own family, how can he take care of God's church?) He must not be a recent convert, or he may become conceited and fall under the same judgment as the devil. He must also have a good reputation with outsiders, so that he will not fall into disgrace and into the devil's trap."

Then we look at Titus 1:6-9: "An elder must be blameless, the husband of but one wife, a man whose children believe and are not open to the charge of being wild and disobedient. Since an overseer is entrusted with God's work, he must be blameless—not overbearing, not quick-tempered, not given to drunkenness, not violent, not pursuing dishonest gain. Rather he must be hospitable, one who loves what is good, who is self- controlled, upright, holy and disciplined. He must hold firmly to the trustworthy message as it has been taught, so that he can encourage others by sound doctrine and refute those who oppose it."

And finally, consider the words of 2 Timothy 2:15: "Study to show yourself approved unto God, a workman that needs not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth."

Allow me to share my process of entering into the ministry: I started with a four-year undergraduate degree, with a focus on pre-theological studies.  During this time, I took two years of Greek and two years of Hebrew.  I also took other Christian and Bible courses, along with a normal load of acadaemics (English, Science, etc.).  This was a requirement for me to enter into the seminary.  Of special interest were the Greek and Hebrew classes, which are the languages of the New and Old Testaments respectively.  We had to have a working knowledge of these languages in order to take the required exegetical and isogogical courses at the seminary.  If we were to be faithful and accurate teachers of God's Word, we had to be able to read it in the original language.  We were to never trust a translation of the Bible without being able to compare it to the Greek and Hebrew.

The seminary is a four-year graduate school.  A great deal of time was spent in studying the Scriptures, both Old and New Testaments.  We also had classes in preaching, Christian education, counselling, symbolics, dogmatics, etc.  We spent three years in a classroom setting, and one year as a student intern, where we served under a pastor in a congregational setting.  When all this was done, we were interviewed in depth by the seminary faculty with emphasis on our Christian fundamentals, faith, and life. And once we passed that step, we were recommended for graduation (Masters Degree), and declared a candidate for ordination, and ready for a call into a congregation or the mission field.

This may seem to be a lot, but speaking personally I wouldn't have missed any of my schooling.  It was all definitely worth it.

After graduation, my name was put on a list as one who had fulfilled all of the qualifications of a pastor.  I had "studied to show myself approved," and I was ready to receive a call from a congregation.  God, working through a particular congregation issued me a call, and so began my ministry 21 years ago.

As a pastor, I have the words of Acts 20:28 before me: "Keep watch over yourselves and all the flock of which the Holy Spirit has made you overseers. Be shepherds of the church of God, which he bought with his own blood."

In your case, I don't know what kind of preparation you have done, or are willing to do.  But being a pastor involves a great deal more than grabbing a Bible and starting to preach. If you are serious about being a pastor, then you need to be serious about doing it right, and not trying to look for short-cuts.  If you dedicate your life to serving Christ, then whatever educational preparation is necessary is also part of that life of service.

I have seen people go through the seminary in all stages of life, so one can never use the "I'm too old" excuse.  There are also various positions in the church that don't require a seminary education; but the office of the public ministry cannot be short-circuited.  Matthew 18:6 is a great warning for pastors that they need to do things right.  Jesus says, "But if anyone causes one of these little ones who believe in me to sin, it would be better for him to have a large millstone hung around his neck and to be drowned in the depths of the sea."

So if you're serious about the ministry, then be serious enough to take the time and do it right.  And don't waste your time begging church councils for a ministry position.  God knows who you are and where you are, and he will provide a position for you where your talents can be best utilized for the good of his kingdom.

So do you possess all of the qualifications for a pastor?  Not now perhaps, but in time maybe you will.  Study what the Bible says about this, commit it to prayer, and explore the various avenues so that you too can "study to show yourself approved."